I know, I am still living in denial. I couldn't take it that the fact is out yet I am still like this. I remembered being like a total useless pile of shit for days. Felt like smoking, felt like giving up, felt angsty. Pretending that nothing happened is good. But at the same time, I feel like this is going nowhere, unless I change.
I know, now, I am still in denial, holding on with temporary happiness.
