It's the time of the year where I do up a summary of the happenings of the year 2014. Upon thinking back, I think this year is quite amazing despite all the shit that had happened as well. This is also the year I was single for the entire year (After being in almost-back-to-back relationships since 2009), this year was also difficult for me to adapt.
1. My fangirling experiences
When uni life started in Aug, I was pretty sure that I wouldn't fangirl as hard as before, simply because I didn't have time to. School & dance just took up the entire day, everyday. I just don't know how to maintain my life online and offline at the same time anymore. I stopped tweeting that much as well. But overall, I am glad that I have experienced a happy fangirl life earlier this year, from having a meet-and-greet with Kwang Soo, meeting Wong Fu Productions & David Choi, meet-and-greet with Ryan Higa & RHPC, and even seen the 7 members of Running Man in real life. Many of these chances I have to meet my idols, I am freaking grateful for these chances :') I am also grateful for the internet friends that I had made and met through these idols... Even though I may MIA from the account, but some of my sisters still remember me :') Very touched.
2. Exploring new genres in dance.
Exploring a new genre in dance has never crossed my mind until this year, where I tried breakdance, popping, jazz, locking and waacking. (And tried Soul Dance & House once or twice). Being exposed to new genres, or given the opportunity to explore just simply brought more joy and deepened my passion to dance. I still wanna learn krumping though. One day, I promise, one day, I will. For now, I still wanna be focused in locking. I have set two goals and hopefully to fulfill them in 2015 :)
3. Solo plane trip
Apart from my first plane trip in 2013 with my buddy, this solo plane trip is a new experience. Especially when you are clueless to where to go; and we don't have any communicating devices on hand in a foreign land to communicate with the person I am supposed to meet there. Also waiting alone in the airport is a lonely yet scary feeling too.
4. Starting uni life
Start of a uni life without any course mates is really hard to cope with. I remember sticking so closely to my poly clique because I am so blur in school. Was dependent on the few groups of people I met here. Was not coping well in school, starting to skip lectures, having lunch alone, and much more. Most of the times I will be walking around the school alone. However, I met friends who didn't go for the FOC camp as well. Even though our friendship is quite superficial, I hope that in the years to come, we will become closer. In uni, I have also accepted that there are many instances whereby we will all be just hi-bye friends. If both parties don't try to sustain a friendship, it's just hard. But at least, I am glad I have one or two of you who I want to maintain a friendship with and can still can talk to :) From here, I have learnt so much to be an independent person especially when there's no one to eat lunch or dinner with, no one to study with. I am glad music accompanied throughout this long way. Also, I have gotten close to a few friends who I just made in uni. It's unbelievable how fast I can get so close with someone who I just met. But all these last for that short while. This is one of the times where I felt really hurt from losing a friendship. Slowly, I have gotten over it. And another friendship will come along and save the pathetic me from hanging on to a "expired" close friendship. However, I still feel like I am reliant to friendships. I do agree that spending time with friends makes me really happy, but it's really time to be independent.
5. Dance family
I think attending the SF camp was one of my best decisions ever. I can't imagine life now if I didn't join it. I wouldn't have a group of people to hang out and dance with. My first dance family started when I came for SF camp. Scooby Doo. My first dance family. We had lotsa fun and laughter together sessioning before school started. Occasionally we would still meet up for study sessions & lunch. But 1 month after school started, everyone was so busy, no time for dinners, meetups & sessions. One day, SVFU came along and the 7 of us (aka Dance Enthusiasts) decide to YOLO and go for the auditions. Despite not getting through the auditions, we forged a strong friendship since then. I felt like I never regretted joining this though I screwed up my auditions so badly.
6. Old friends
Throughout this 4-5 months in Uni, I have reflected very often about how much I haven't been spending time with old friends. During December, I have decided to meet up with those that I have always missed, yet didn't tell them that I missed them. When you want to do something, don't even think twice, just do it.
7. Working
1/4 of the year was spent on working. I kinda liked working because of the fixed timing and I wouldn't have to bring work home to do, unlike school. I also get to go to gym, go for dance classes at night after working. But then again, work is tiring and is never easy. No one is gonna back you up when you make mistakes, unlike school. Work is the time when your sense of responsibility heighten. Still grateful that I can further my studies and also spend the last four years of my studying life to its fullest.
8. Doing things that a girl usually won't do.
I admit that I have really liked a few guys in this year. (Not all at the same time but you get what I mean) The furthest thing I have ever tried is asking one guy out. Now that I think back, I don't even know why I liked them in the first place xD HAHA, But now, I think I have lost my guts to even ask a guy out. I get nervous to even ask on messages. :/ Today I just did something crazy. I confessed. Not sure if it's a good idea. However, I have friends who are supportive or what I will do and even give advice on these. Thank you my friends. Be it what outcome, I shall not bring my regrets into 2015.
9. Family
Specially thankful & grateful that my grandma always cook great food when I am home. And thank you dad for always fetching me to school when I need to. :) Cherishing them so muchhhhh.
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In 2014, I may have made a lot of mistakes, or offend anyone. I am sorry for these but in 2015, I promise to be a better person; mature, independent and even responsible. Time to improve on both my grades and dance skills! Jiayou! Cheers to a new year aheadddddd!
