So confused over what to do.
To do, or not to do?
So afraid of judgement from others.
Didn't used to care about how others might judge me, but now, being part of this community, I think I just gotta carry myself properly. Also, I am getting more wary of my surroundings and myself. I have to be careful of this and that because rumours spread much easily. Don't know who to trust, neither do I know what to do.
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The perfectionist me had been putting myself down when I rewatch my videos, criticizing every move, to the point that I believe the entire video sucked. Haish. Time to train harderrrrrr.
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Sometimes I just feel like I have been intepreting my feelings wrongly, I really don't know.. I think I like this guy, but I really don't know if I love him. I think I might have forgotten what loving someone is really like. I need find that one person that will make me feel like I would do anything for. Only time will tell.